For your information..shumei put on braces on her teeth le..those interested in her maybe V*****t or K***y can buy baby food for her..hahaha....shumei gonna kill me...
I didnt had a good rest last night...firstly i fall sick....and when i was about to sleep...i heard toy car moving de sound outside at 1am...and i recalled what dad say...i was kinda frightened and the whole night i had nightmare throughout...i wasnt sure whether i was awake by the dream or some noise...3am plus i woke up again and i was mentally tired by then...woke up at 11am this morning ...feeling little headache...
sometimes i wish i am not so independent..being independent you need to think more than others...sometimes how i wish i am simple minded...i dont have to worry for so much things...u look at people who are simple minded...they lead a carefree life and seems ok ..i do envy them at times....especially when at the same moment i am worrying about things they dont have to..they juz live normally....people all tell me....learn to be independent is a good thing..even mum told me so but i didnt see the good thing...what i can see is other people haf the right to cry and feel sad for things ..but i dont...if i were to cry or feel sad..i feel that i dun haf the right to do so cos i am tagged with the word' independent'
I know alot alot of people envy about my attachment matter...sometimes i felt helpless when i hear what they said...i didnt really wish to explain as i never feel that being in a not well to good family is a honour thing to declare...nv will they expect in the end i got less than them to spend...sometimes it's a sad thing to face these matters but i guess i am used to all this...
I was quite angry with a matter a week ago...it links to my so-call 'fate'...I juz couldnt accept things planend for me in life....for once i actually wanted to get that unknown person out and debate/shout and scream at him..everytime it's lidad.....people get things they dont deserve...damn...if any god wants me to accept the way it is..they shldnt have given me such a strongwill and stubborn character..throw me obstacles...let me learn and i thought i gain something...in the end...it's all the same since you plan better things for others...
posted by liting @ 2:00 pm
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