panda's bbq
It was supposed to be a happy for all of us yesterday..perhaps i should say it has been a great day of all of us initially at panda's hse.we had a gathering at his hse,having bbq...everything juz fall into place nicely...mandy and i have so much to chat about..no matter what issue...we always keep on chatting..occasionally cody join in our conversation...and 3 of us jux keep on talking...till so happy...at times ln join in...we talk from serious issue to laughing matters..and how i wish time could just stop at that moment wif my frens..
the guys started playing pool upstairs and not long after i went up...i decided to leave as this morning i need to work...i left all alone...
i started walking along the street....i was about to take out my mp3 and i accidentally look up at 1 of the tree...i saw something/someone up there....i turned away immmediately...i know there is sth up there but i dare not look up to confirm...i couldnt turn back...neither do i dare to walk back...no one is in the street...i was alone there...i started to walk faster but i realise my heart beat faster and i really got real scared...
I was at a loss ...and finally i decided to call mandy..crying telling her what i saw...i stood there...not moving ...i cant move....cos i am really frightened...on the phone..what i heard was mandy telling them i was crying and cody took the phone and ask me where i am...i stood there waiting for them to come to me...finally i saw them but i was already in tears..
they accompany me to the bus stop...mandy was comforting me..i was still in a shocked on the way home...and i have to pretend nothing happens after i got home...i din speak much to mum and went to sleep...i was really exhausted but i juz cant get into sleep...cos my mind was all about what happened juz now and i juz started crying once the thought haunt me...
of course i din sleep well last night...and i got a slight fever ...i think it's due to the shock...i din really want to work today but in the end i went...today whole day i din speak much too....i guess my family start to wonder what's happening to me...i became juz so quiet...quiet...i dun feel like talking..i dun feel like having ppl ard me...all i want is to be alone..to have some quiet moment..
this is the first time i was so helpless...cos nv have i got so scared before....in the past i am always able to handle situation myself cool and steady....this time i couldnt present to everyone the liting who seems cool and steady always..
And due to what happened last night...i msg anna this morning telling her i am not going for the gathering....the gathering i wanted to attend so much...i definately wanted to attend so much...really...
Sry to trouble everyone last night....and of course thx everyone for the concern...i know when i need them...they will be there for me...really there for me....
i'll try my best to be back my usual self...the usual cheerful liting...give me some time..i'll be alright.
posted by liting @ 9:54 am
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