ya...drunk for both nite...unexpected of me...1st chalet nite i was drunk too...but it's not as bad as u all might think...the beer merely slowed down my reaction time but i m still sober in my mind...i am 100% clear of what's happening ard me....even though i cant walk straight..haiz..it's the first time i got drunk...drunk yet sober...weird huh?
the chalet was alrite....juz that some misunderstanding and miscommunication happens between cody and me...and i was quite hostile towards him...ya..i admit...but we couldnt find time and place to clear the misunderstanding and i was abit cold towards him..but i am definately a rational person...i still went for the steamboat but i know there's nth much i can tok to him abt..i left earlier after the card game
i got home almost 12 am .....and juz nice i got a sms from cody asking if i haf return home...the sms came juz nice cos i tink it's time for us to say thing clearly...we settle everything in msn...in a nice and calm tone....and i shld say everything comes to an end...i went offline early cos i know i m not that sober...and was lying down on my bed thinking.....perhaps i owe him a sry too.
and i hope none of this things happen again....the chalet was alrite..i enjoy so much wif frens...but come to tink that i gotta work later...i m so sad...then i keep reminding myself what mandy and cody said...i tried i really tried....psycho myself....work ard 20 more days only...i am not going to work for permanently....but it's a tough job and i really wasnt happy working there...not happy at all....the feeling of waking up and realise u haf to work later....makes me bad mood....and i tried thinking abt other things...like for eg..tinking of frens..xiaoling...zchen's songs...but that couldnt survive me for long..
i know i haf the choice to choose to work happily and professionally or keep sulking at my work and having myself felt so terrible always..i keeptelling mysle.f..it's juz a holiday job...holiday job...but it's a tough job too....sometimes i felt i am more stressed up during holidays than studies...ok la...unless i am doing factory work or wad....i nv like salesger job...now is bo biam den i take this job...imagine a person like me who dun like to take initiative to approach ppl(unless i knew u very well la) haf to go and approach ppl....wa kaoz.....it's difficult for me lor....i lost my smile...
all i need nw...is just some encouragement....from ppl who always encourage me and makes me feel better...
and i need a proper rest too...a rest without worries.....
posted by liting @ 4:27 am
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