haiz
i almost ended up quarreling wif mum again...arrr...she la....ask me if i can work on weekdays wen sch reopen..damn it...she knew i will nv work during weekdays lor...somemore i will be working in weekend liao...pls lor....yr 2 will be more stressful lor....wa lao..wan me work everyday...muz well ask me dun study la....damn it....she shld noe nv ask me to put work n studies together..I DUN LIKE....she shld noe i m very serious in studies...i dun care hw others can work n study at the same time....I DUN CARE..dun compare ppl doing this..n i m not doing tis...dun compare wif work...if she likes to compare...compare hw i haf done for the family n wad others haf done for the family....she only tot i like to haf fun...wen i contribute to family ...she wun see it...damn lor...pls dun always tink only u contributed alot....pls dun always tell me others ppl de daughter so gd..this n that...sry i dun buy all tis lor...i can swear i did done my part as daughter liao lor...pls go ard n ask which teenagers will do like i do....n u still tink i....damn damn damn....say i bad temper or i too easily fed up...but i dun understand y my parents dun see the importance of education...?i dun understand y tey tink i m mad wen i study like hell...or pls....so u mean i dun study la?den nxt time my children suffer wif me?no way man!i haf my aims...yes...i m not clever...i m slow in learning...i dun perform as well for tis sem's result compare to last sem....yes...i noe where i stand...but pls lor...i nv give up...i nv ever give up...i m hardwroking..i know i m not clever...but i try n try...i nv let down myself...n one thing...i dun study for the sake of parents hor..i study for myself...ya..i mb sad wen i din perform well....but the reason of being sad is nv that i feel i let down both of u...nv...is cos i m not happy that hw hard i tried...n i still get that kind of results...ya..i noe it's fate...but nv will i give up....i noe at times u r unhappy that i take studies more seriously than health...sry if u dun tink wad i m tinking...n nv force me to tink like u do....
argh....stupid rite?one sentence from her can spoilt my mood...luckily we din quarrel...cos i 'ren ren ren'....haiz...
went jogging wif ln today...i no more stamina liao sia...haiz...sad....arr....
posted by liting @ 8:53 am
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