*HeArTbRoKeN*
blog ar blog....i very ke lian....wanna write my feelings down in u oso cannot...wanna tell ppl oso cannot...cos if i tell my surrounding frens i die lor....die liao...i tink...tis time....after jm..i m really falling for some1 le....omg..hw can tt be?y muz it be him?y y y?u noe wad...i trying to tink of his bad pts so tt i can convince myself he is not tt type i want...but but..i juz cant find anyway.cos in the past...i always do tt...den i wun like tt guy antway..but not tis time...y? hw i wish sometimes i tink too much or wad...but his action really can make me happy lor.....like wad...i cannot say..cos he noe my blog address! so i haf to diam diam...cannot say...lolz...but hor...those guys reading my blog...may not be u hor....dun tink too much...lolz...i haf a habit..wenever i received a sms in hp...i will cover the name n read the msg n guess hu is the sender....stupidly...wenever i received his sms....u can catch me smiling to myself. y? y nw den i notice him.....y y y.......n y him......i hope hu i like can be any body else....but him...n it end up him...y y y?
i very ke lian...cos i canot tell my fren y i fan..the person i can tell n feel safe is joash...cos he not in my clz...he can listen to me...last nite i told joash...at least i feel better abit...i really dun wanna to like him le...really...neither do i wish to "confess"..siao ar....
my devil tell me sth is amiss btw he n i...but angel tell me...i m juz tinking too much....angel n devil fighting in my heart...hu will win in the end? hu will control me in the end?i nid to find things do...only den i can keep calm..if not..i will tink tink tink n tink....god..dun torture me.....give me back my CALM mind ...i miss it....
the gd thing is i damn pro in...eh...sort of hiding my feelings....i can be very normal to him in sch...damn normal...i will not show out anything...neither will my action betray me....i can even hack care him if i want to(even in my heart i still like him la)...damn scary sia...dunno y....i can take a step forward n retreat backward at the same time wifout anyone notice......
hai hai hai~fan ar!!!!!! dunno i will pek chek till wen .....today chem lesson sianz....cep sianz....jap even sianz...den tt phoebe teo very de noisy..ppl all sleeping during break ...she tok n tok n tok...i was sleeping too.....damn fed up...get up n ask her diam...den cody ask me if i want him to help me hit phoebe anot...lolz...i say yes...n he hit her!lolz.....but hit as in joking la....den hu noes phoebe hit cody back...n her fingernail dunno hw cause cody de eyelid bleed abit.....hai~phoebe! y u so violent?!
stay in library wif mandy,sm.alex,ln,james n cody to study..wa lao eh...i cannot stand ah ln...very fan ar..........nxt time i dun want see him studying wif us anymore....lolz.....tonite i blog quite early cos i tink later i will be bz wif....................................haha...we shall see...
kk.....stop here....my mood getting bad again...hai~
posted by liting @ 12:31 pm
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