*heart locking*
hi tere...juz finish looking at the organic chem electure....so nw is kind of my break time..came to blog...cos tonite really got to chiong chem liao...i really dun understand...but i wun give up...i'll try my best....haha... today got cep ct...hmm....early in the morning i woke up..haven brush teeth...first thing is online...cos i got feeling tt siow ling reply my email....n he did!he replied a "gd luck" email to me...tt really boost up my morale...thx ar...lolz....the paper was alrite....i tink i din let him down... : ) haha.....recently really quite stress wif ct....hse de phone keep ringing.....nw i kind of scare of answering calls le...but nvm...i m helping my frens....but nw after tmr...i gotta help myself le...lolz....
tink alot these few days..alot of ups n downs....n last nite i ask a stupid qn to joash...i ask him if one day i sad till siao...will he be tere for me...lolz...he reply me "yeaa" n tt's reply really brighten up my mood abit...thx joash...nv expect to be so gd wif joash...cos tt time he is only my grp leader during the pals camp....den we rarely contact each other...hu expect nw he is someone i can turn to wen i xin fan.....sry to ma fan u ar...joash....really glad to haf u as my fren.... : )
ya.....tink alot....i feel tt i m not hardworking enuff...muz jia you more...i noe even though my parents nv stress me by telling me wad grades i shld get for studies....i noe tey expect me to do well...cos tey believe in me....yet tey juz dun wanna stress me....thx ar...dunnoe since wen...i becum the sole impt person at home...other than taking care of washing dishes,clothes,looking after sisters....financially....i m helping too.....sometimes i may feel tired...but i tink....cos i m the eldest daughter....i haf the responsibility to take up those "challenges"...nw in my mind...i juz wanna do well in studies,maintain a superb relationship wif frens(like nw) n healthy at all time...i will be very happy le....though i may not very very very happy cos i have not pour out my sorrow...but dun worry...nxt tue...wen i go kbox....wen i sing all my sorrows out.....after tue...i'll be fine n happy....
i noe myself very well....i m impaitient...easily pek chek(all my frens noe)...stubborn at times....loner wen down(though loner tis word belongs to cody...lolz), kou shi xin fei....zui yin xin luan,dunnoe y everytime wen i quarrel wif ppl...i will tend to cry even if i dun want to.....(tis pt i damn pek chek)...hmm....n of course the very 1 thing i very pei fu myself...i can hide feelings well....even if i like some1.....i can hack care him juz as i like....tok to him tok till i shuai juz as i like...it's like i m acting yet i m not...tis is my character...lolz.....1 more...i got strong pride....will be very hard to give in if i not in the rong..no matter hu tt person is......lolz....
to john constantine~ thx u...my giving up percentage increase to 70% le....i m sry for still leaving 30% for me to tink of him....like him....look at him...but i tink....in no time...i can reach 100% n den.....my heart shall locked for a long period of time.....
to zchen~thx u for teaching me to lock my heart...if i din heard the interview of urs in ufm100.3...i din noe tt locking heart is actually healing it...thx for ur voice n song cos it really suits my feeling wen i nid to... the most impt part is "locking of heart"......i shall lose the key nw....so even wen i wanna open wif the key nxt time...i cant cos i lost it....the moment my heart is fully locked is wen i dun like him anymore...n my key go mia juz like my feeling for him....."locked"....
n i shall open my heart wen i wear tt necklace wif a key on it....lolz.....
go rest first...later nid to study chem again...STRESS...lolz...den if i tink i very guai..study liao i understand i shall online tonite...if not...lolz.....i shall die in chem ...hahahahahaha...buai!
posted by liting @ 12:32 pm
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